Resolution of relativistic probabilities

After days of probabilistic chaos, all wave functions have again collapsed back into a more or less stable probabilistic state. Life so strange, it seems like we are given an infinitude of choices, yet when we scrutinise it closely, these choices are bounded by a certain set of rules, which severely limits the number of possible outcomes arising from these choices. Upon even further scrutiny, i realised that these rules are comprised of two main variables, time and space, in which the predictive function of many situations are affected by our relative positions in them. The difficulty lies not only in knowing exactly where our location is in this space time contiuum, but also the many numbers of entities and their corresponding locations in the diaspora. An additional layer of complexity is created by the constant movement of these entities through this reality soup. I don't know for a certainty whether such rules really govern the state of reality as we know it, but every day is a revelation. Every day we can observe such mechanisms at play. Now if only i could lift myself above the fray, it would be much easier for me to observe such relationships and better understand them. But that would mean i won't be able to get involved in all these interactions. Life would be rather boring.. hehe. But for all i know, there are probably an infinite number of layers of determinants of life, the universe and everything. But i guess this is a pretty good start. Now, if only i could see better..

Letter to a friend

Dear friend,

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I'm a friend, as much a friend as any friend can be. Whether or not you trust me is really up to you. I won't force you to make a decision, because i believe in freedom of choice. I won't promise you the world, all i can promise you is my friendship, that no matter what happens, whatever choice you should make in life, i should be ready to stand beside you. That is my promise. But for now, matters are taken out of my hands, because i have already done what i feel is right and best, and that now i will take a step backwards. Because for now, its your move.

Eugene

Life is Strange

Life is indeed strange. The webs of connection between all people, and the reverberations resulting from a root cause affects all connected to it. Knowing too much can sometimes be a pain, and being too sensitively tuned to these vibrations is not always a good thing. For every action, there is a requisite equal and opposite reaction, for every cause there is an effect. But yet, sometimes when too many variables are thrown into the fray, chaos ensues. Chaos, as a matter of theory, is not a purely random state. Rather, it is a disordered state of events arising from more or less predetermined structures. I think perhaps i have overestimated my abilities and underestimated the strength and possibility of the vibrations emanating from certain recent actions. Now all that can be done would be to allow the infinite threads of probability to collapse back onto a more stable state. Or will free will play a part? Will an active force exerted on these threads aggravate the diversification of probabilites, or will it channel these forces into a predeterminable state?

Only God knows.

Equilibrium Shift

Strange things happen. Certain external forces have disturbed the stable equilibrium again, and now the system has been thrown into chaos. Will the system move back into equilibrium? Or will will there be an equilibrium shift? The change came like a bolt from the blue, seemingly totally and utterly random, but perhaps it was a reverberation effect downstream of a simple cause from some time in the past. Very strange, yet so very interesting. Its usually been my practice to halt these equilibriums shifts, or to try to slow down the process, not least due to some resistance to change on my part. Troublesome. This time, i think, i will follow through this reaction to full completion. Perhaps the final result will be an optimal one. Somehow, the conditions of this reaction seem to so close to perfection that it seems almost premediated. Perhaps thats why i'm willing enough to sacrifice what is most precious to me, my time, to tend to this particular equilibrium shift, rather than simply utilising the laws of quantum physics to do my work for me. This time. I will make it happen.

Truth is..

Hi all!

At the time of posting (which is now), i happen to be slightly high. Exams just over and i just came back from mambo night at zouk. My friends drank quite a huge bit and ended up slightly les than sober, in which case they happened to puke all over the dance floor. As it is, it wasnt a very happening zouk experience for me, but i wouldnt say it wasn't an eventful one. i learnt that true frens dun give a shit about rowdy behaviour and vomit, and it kinda reminded me of the time where i did the same. haha. Thank God for friends. I met many many people there who it seemed decided to go choing on the same day which i happened to as well. From all walks of my life it seemed. JC frens, army frens, uni frens, freshies, seniors, all were there. Wad the hell. Despite my less than sober state, it reminded me that friends can indeed be found everywhere.

This post might be less than coherent, but i am recording this down for posterity's sake, for under the lack of inhibition from consumption of alcohol, i might finally record some element of truth .